Hq!

Hq!!! 

Hey, they said love is beautiful and I think I fell in love, there’s this video of us that you made on my phone that I watch almost every day because the video makes me laugh, whenever the video ends, I play it like over and over till i have this creepy smile on my face.

 To some people I’m very shy and quiet but I know that never in a gazillion years would you say I’m quiet because I’m always talking, laughing and smiling around you.  You make me happy, you make me smile and you always bring out the best version of me. You have been a shoulder to cry on, a back to lean on and a hand to always drag me up. Your never ending encouragements I wouldn’t say has brought me this far but has giving me the push that it has. Sometimes I wonder what life without you would be like but hell I don’t even want to find out. 

   You know my sister asked me a question recently, she said what would happen if you and this guy do not end up together and I said that even if we don’t end up getting married and having our happily ever after lol, having you as a friend is far greater than you being absent from my life (sha don’t friend zone me). I don’t see a future without you, Hq!! Why does that sound so cliché even in my ears? 

  I remember those times when you’d come to my house and I’d be shouting rape o, assault o and then you’d be going back home and those bricklayers would be looking at us like what were this small children doing inside that house sef and we’d make jokes about it, all the serious conversations we had on my dining table area, sometimes I sit in that same spot and remember and I’m like and we thought we had sense o, do you remember how we'd plan our university lives, how would live together and graduate together or how you'd beg me to take pictures with you but I'll refuse and you'll say you’d never ask me to talk pictures ever again but you still beg me to take pictures till today, how can I forget the first time we kissed, we were at a friend's house and I was so late, I was sure my mum was going to kill me but I stayed anyways. I'd tell you about every single guy that asks me out and you'd say "date them na they can take care of you"  but I'll be like nahh "I'm  waiting for you"  When I think about all those times, I wish I could go back, I was the happiest then and I would never trade those memories for anything in this world   

   Through all the fights, arguments, late night talks, phone calls, tears, visits, conversations, video calls, annoying moments, some moments where we even feel like killing each other, we are still here, we still talk, we still visit and we are still happy for each other in the separate life that we lead.. I wouldn’t lie, I’ve always wanted a relationship with you from day one (yh primary school ) but you taught me that friendships are underrated and relationships are overrated, you taught me that phone calls are underrated and even chatting is too, you’ve taught me that no matter what, life is worth living.

 You are my biggest inspiration  and I wouldn’t lie I appreciate your extra push. You showed me the difference between friendship and brotherhood or should I call it bromance, you are a true blessing…… If only I could say all of these things to your face and actually see your reaction but I don’t know how to talk to you sometimes. I’m scared of you, why? Because I have never ever felt this type of ways towards someone and I feel like I’d mess it all up. 

Hey, you should always stay happy because when you’re happy then I’m happy and when you’re sad then I’m sad but you’re hardly ever sad sef, it’s like you’re immune to sadness or something which is good tho, i'm already an emotional rollercoster for the 2 of us. 

  Its kinda sad that that chapter of our lives are over and i wish i would have lasted forever but i guess my insecurities droves up apart and you had your own share of issues. i just want to remind you that I'd always be here i guess. Thank you for being my first love!