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A trip down memory lane: My heart speaks!

I remember when you used to love me, yes I know you don't love me anymore  Those times, you'd ask the silliest questions, you wanted to know everything about me, upto what I had for breakfast and what I had planned for Dinner I thought those were the happiest days of life I remember when you told me that my smile lightened up your day and you'd do anything to keep me smiling, now all I do all day is sit and cry, waiting for you to make me smile. You told me that I was the best thing that ever happened to you and you'd never let me go, now I'm watching you walk away hoping that you'd remember someday and come back  I miss the days that you'd look at me like I was the world, you'd kiss me like your life depends on it, the days I was first and everything else came after, now you look at her the same way, I watch you whisper those same words in her ear like you did mine, her smile grows even brighter than mine did. I want you back, I want that smile again, I...
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"To 22"

Dear Winner,   I'm so proud of you, you pushed and pushed and postponed till you finally got it out there. After postponing for 4 years, you finally took 'THE' step.   Dear Faith,      I'm so proud of you, we all believed that you didn't have it in you to leave him and move on but you proved us wrong     Dear Peace,       I'm so proud of you, hehe ASU showed you shege and you went back, I'm happy you didn't decide to give up along the way, I mean dropping out sounded so good at that time and you're getting that degree       Dear Tinuke,          I'm so proud of you, remember how we made a bet and we all agreed that you'd be the first to start a family amongst us, how school was not for you and you'd be a better mother figure. Take a look at you now, despite the heartbreaks and discouragements you followed your heart. Married life looks good on you btw         Emeka Emeka,  ...

Hq!

Hq!!!  Hey, they said love is beautiful and I think I fell in love, there’s this video of us that you made on my phone that I watch almost every day because the video makes me laugh, whenever the video ends, I play it like over and over till i have this creepy smile on my face.  To some people I’m very shy and quiet but I know that never in a gazillion years would you say I’m quiet because I’m always talking, laughing and smiling around you.  You make me happy, you make me smile and you always bring out the best version of me. You have been a shoulder to cry on, a back to lean on and a hand to always drag me up. Your never ending encouragements I wouldn’t say has brought me this far but has giving me the push that it has. Sometimes I wonder what life without you would be like but hell I don’t even want to find out.     You know my sister asked me a question recently, she said what would happen if you and this guy do not end up together and I said that even ...

Dear 20

    My interesting new age, I honestly had no plans to write you a letter but here I am sitting in the kitchen thinking about how life has changed so much in the past few weeks. And how I've had to put so many people before myself even after making so many promises to myself to put my self first, I've thought of so many things that I had told myself I would never have to think of, done so many things I could have sworn I'll never do. I've smiled more, cried more, hoped and longed for more, tried harder and even prayed more. I've learnt so much about life, love, family, friendship and even myself, some of this things I had hoped I'd have to learn later in life. I'm hardly decent at expressing myself or making decisions or being me but one thing I think I'm decent at is writing how I feel and that's why I'm writing to you     My interesting new age, just Incase you're wondering what the perfect gift would be, maybe you could get me that bouncin...

WINNER OR FAILURE

     I woke up today feeling like a total failure. These past few months I've been doing a lot of thinking. Brainstorming, trying to gather ideas, reading almost everything on the internet, and writing everything in my mind on paper. It feels like the moment I take a step forward, I end up taking a thousand steps back to where I started.      3 years ago, when I clocked 16, I had written a few realistic goals that I hoped to have achieved or at least have taken some important steps toward achieving but here I am few weeks to 20 and I can't say I've taken an important step towards achieving my most realistic goal. Yh, I know according to some people, I'm doing a lot better than other people my age but if only I could stop feeling like a failure long enough for me to understand and accept that.      I've chosen to blame this feeling on a lot of factors asides from myself, I mean we're Nigerians, isn't that what we're supposed to do? At first, I...

Dear me,

 Dear me,  It saddenes my heart to have to bring you this news. Late last night, after a much needed conversation with myself, I have come to a realization that I no longer have feelings for him. I just wanted to let you know right away, so that you didn't have to realize through my changed attitude or nonchalant behavior towards him.       While I don't have plans as to what my next step will be, I have decided that going forward, I would put myself first and strive to achieve my own dreams and ambitions.i hope you can understand the reason for my change of heart.    In as much as it saddens me to bring you this news, I am also filled with immense happiness that I'm out of that phase of my life. I really hope you see reasons with me.  With love, Me